Drown

I want to drown

Not in a depressing, killing myself way.

More in a way of wanting to know how it feels to be completely overcome by water.

How it feels so look up and see the sun beeming trough the waves knowing you'll never reach it.

The way your lungs fill with water while you're powerless.

Reaching out for a breath of fresh air, or any air at all, and your thoughts flooding your brain about how helpless you are and how nothing will save you.

Reaching deeper and deeper, losing conscience, losing life.

And in the mist of the dark surrounded by water, completely give up.

Knowing your body cant handle more.

Being more water than person.

Drowning.